Sometimes, I just feel so lonely. Not in the 'abandoned by God' sense, as I know He's always there. But more like isolated. And it becomes so much worse when you are with company, but not WITH company...
Why do I feel lonely?
Sigh...
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Adamanteus
After Kairos, had a spot of talk with S. Discussed some CG issues, most of which I'll need to iron out with A soon. First thing he said that made me think a bit, was that I was hard to read. Which I found a little strange, since I always thought that I wasn't exactly proficient in hiding my thoughts. Well, apparently I've been doing a good job of that. Must mean I could be good at playing poker, if I played poker. Perhaps because I once prayed to have a heart of steel so that no one could hurt me. If that was true, all I managed to achieve was to make sure people didn't see they had hurt me. Which I guess, would be about 50% accomplished, if you were happy with that sort of objective.
Anyway, he said he sensed some tension-ish vibes between the me and A, and for quite a while too. While I'll admit that recently, I've gone into a rather melancholic mood, meaning that I have gotten somewhat depressed, which in turn makes me a little bad-tempered, which may have been why maybe today I was a little curt with A, but I thought we had cleared up that little mess last year. S didn't quite feel the same way though. And he has got a point. Not about clearing up the mess. More about how well I knew A. Which is why I may have to go and have another talk with A.
One other thing he pointed out was that we may have been focusing on what we lost, and not what he have. Kinda like that half-empty/half-full cup thingy? And he did have a point there.
On another side, there's this thing going on about how NUS students should wear black on 15th Feb to protest the increase in school fees. Which I found rather amusing. Don't get me wrong, I too dislike the fact that they've raised the school fees. By $180 for me. It's just that wearing black thing. It's like, a really lame excuse of a protest man. I mean seriously, if we wanted to protest, we should form a strike and have placards and that sort of thing. I mean, what kind of a protest works by wearing black?! Not to mention, as E told me just now, on any given day, half the school populace would ALREADY be in black. I really find it rather amusing.
And on another totally unrelated note, I had a spammer who posted on my previous post. The one below. Yeah. I mean, having a spammer is bad enough. You might have noticed a couple of adverts that appeared in some of my other posts. But this one really got on my nerves. Because of what the advert was on.
So you stupid moron, if you ever come back to this site, I've got this to say to you:
"BUT IF ANYONE CAUSES ONE OF THESE LITTLE ONES WHO BELIEVE IN ME TO SIN, IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR HIM TO HAVE A LARGE MILLSTONE HUNG AROUND HIS NECK AND TO BE DROWNED IN THE DEPTHS OF THE SEA. WOE TO THE WORLD BECAUSE OF THE THINGS THAT CAUSE PEOPLE TO SIN! SUCH THINGS MUST COME, BUT WOE TO THE MAN THROUGH WHOM THEY COME!" -Matthew 18:6, 7
Yeah. You better damn well repent, or face the wrath of God come eternity.
Anyway, he said he sensed some tension-ish vibes between the me and A, and for quite a while too. While I'll admit that recently, I've gone into a rather melancholic mood, meaning that I have gotten somewhat depressed, which in turn makes me a little bad-tempered, which may have been why maybe today I was a little curt with A, but I thought we had cleared up that little mess last year. S didn't quite feel the same way though. And he has got a point. Not about clearing up the mess. More about how well I knew A. Which is why I may have to go and have another talk with A.
One other thing he pointed out was that we may have been focusing on what we lost, and not what he have. Kinda like that half-empty/half-full cup thingy? And he did have a point there.
On another side, there's this thing going on about how NUS students should wear black on 15th Feb to protest the increase in school fees. Which I found rather amusing. Don't get me wrong, I too dislike the fact that they've raised the school fees. By $180 for me. It's just that wearing black thing. It's like, a really lame excuse of a protest man. I mean seriously, if we wanted to protest, we should form a strike and have placards and that sort of thing. I mean, what kind of a protest works by wearing black?! Not to mention, as E told me just now, on any given day, half the school populace would ALREADY be in black. I really find it rather amusing.
And on another totally unrelated note, I had a spammer who posted on my previous post. The one below. Yeah. I mean, having a spammer is bad enough. You might have noticed a couple of adverts that appeared in some of my other posts. But this one really got on my nerves. Because of what the advert was on.
So you stupid moron, if you ever come back to this site, I've got this to say to you:
"BUT IF ANYONE CAUSES ONE OF THESE LITTLE ONES WHO BELIEVE IN ME TO SIN, IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR HIM TO HAVE A LARGE MILLSTONE HUNG AROUND HIS NECK AND TO BE DROWNED IN THE DEPTHS OF THE SEA. WOE TO THE WORLD BECAUSE OF THE THINGS THAT CAUSE PEOPLE TO SIN! SUCH THINGS MUST COME, BUT WOE TO THE MAN THROUGH WHOM THEY COME!" -Matthew 18:6, 7
Yeah. You better damn well repent, or face the wrath of God come eternity.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Poetica
Amber diffuses,
Slanted rays, casts fields of grey;
Evening beckons.
How's that? I must admit that in my Lit course in school, I find Haiku the most fascinating and appealing of poetic forms so far. Well, apart from Limericks, that is. The interesting thing is, both forms are considered 'low' or 'commoner' type of poems. Wonder what that means...
Chaos is my name.
Disorder within order,
Universal rules.
A real pity we don't get to do Limericks. They're generally funny ones. Though I have also heard that they are also usually vulgar. Maybe that's why we aren't doing them. Haha.. I have tried coming up with some, but right now, I think only E and M have been the subjects of that. And the band has probably seen the one on M.
Bright Son of Heaven
Struck down, they lifted You high,
Salvation is here.
Cheerio
Slanted rays, casts fields of grey;
Evening beckons.
How's that? I must admit that in my Lit course in school, I find Haiku the most fascinating and appealing of poetic forms so far. Well, apart from Limericks, that is. The interesting thing is, both forms are considered 'low' or 'commoner' type of poems. Wonder what that means...
Chaos is my name.
Disorder within order,
Universal rules.
A real pity we don't get to do Limericks. They're generally funny ones. Though I have also heard that they are also usually vulgar. Maybe that's why we aren't doing them. Haha.. I have tried coming up with some, but right now, I think only E and M have been the subjects of that. And the band has probably seen the one on M.
Bright Son of Heaven
Struck down, they lifted You high,
Salvation is here.
Cheerio
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